Alternate realities – Chapter one: Toth and the land of all beginnings
6 December 2017
However much they erased her memory everything came back again to the surface. She remembered every detail that went over and over again in her brain as she thought back to the moments before they first attempted to erase her memory. It had first begun when the radio waves and the electromagnetic pulse had played tricks on her mind causing her to see etheric messages and believe that her beloved would be with her if she showed up in a remote house where he was supposed to arrive. A complicated map had been fed to her through the etheric messages made of geographical as well as symbolic indications during the night. The next morning she had followed the yellow bus sign as well as all the remaining clues and arrived at the house where she had gathered the toys as indicated. Subsequently she had waited on the roof of the house for the first sunrise with her beloved but he was nowhere to be seen.
The occupants of the house had attempted to chase her out and she had thought it was a game to play along up until they had hit her on the head and the ambulance had to be called. During the trip in the ambulance a pair of male and female nurses had attempted to imprint in her memory through trauma inducement the digits 104.1 as being a lifesaving series of numbers and she had associated that with the radio station that she had listened to religiously since then. At points in time during the ambulance ride she felt her consciousness leaving her to rise above her body leaving only the mind within it. She screamed and kicked as her consciousness rose giving her the impression that the whole ambulance was rising in the skies going above the bridge level and that she would die as a result of that ascension. As her screams increased the nurse gave her a shot and she was lulled to sleep all the while chanting under her breath the mantra of everlasting life “Abad”.
She dreamt of Isis, of gateways to other worlds and of Toth holding the book of Truth while her worldly acts were carefully weighed. When she woke up she first had no recollection of what had happened before she lapsed again into the semi-conscious state with the weighing of her deeds and they gave her another shot to stop her whimpering and screaming. She drifted back into the dream state and Isis with her beautiful and familiar face came to her again repeating that she had to let go of the physical and walk in the realms of the land of all beginnings to finish the journey of Truth before she could come back again to the Earthly realm. She spent her time between the nurses who lulled her to sleep and Toth and Isis who brought her firmly into the realms of otherworldly consciousness to judge her Earthly actions before she had even died. Isis repeated that this was because she had foregone the karma cycle and therefore had to be judged during her lifetime and not after it.
She listened as her deeds were enumerated and weighed and for every good deed, her consciousness felt lighter while it felt heavier for every bad deed. She could feel that if she had more good deeds than bad ones she might have a chance to remain in between the two realms of pure consciousness on one hand and the Earthly realm on the other. At the end of the weighing of her deeds and satisfied with the results, Toth granted her a token of otherworldly life that would allow her to leave her body whenever she wanted or needed to and access the land of all beginnings. Armed with this token that would lessen the pain of separation from her beloved Isis and the grave Toth, she slowly drifted back to the Earthly realms knowing that she could always come back whenever she wanted to and that out of body experiences would be something she would now master at will.
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