The Frost Chronicles 4: The secret world of the marid part 2

The Frost Chronicles 4:  The secret world of the marid part 2

12 January -8 February 2020

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She stared at the Marid who despite being right in front of her now still seemed like a towering giant. She wondered if her ears failed her as she could not believe what she had just heard. Did he really say daughter? She looked up at the cloud surrounding the haze which was his face.

  • You profess to be my father, she said in a voice that surprised her by its steadiness despite how shaken she was feeling.
  • I do not profess to be. I am, answered the marid.
  • I have a father of my own whom I have known since my childhood
  • I do not wish to remove his trace from your memory but he is not entirely your father
  • What do you mean not entirely your father?
  • It is something that your kind finds difficult to fathom. You see, your mother was married to your part-father but her heart had been promised to me within dream. She was my chosen one. When your moment of conception had come, I was within your part father and together we created you with your mother’s egg, your father’s sperm and my spark. What your kind never realizes is that the spark is stronger than the rest. Those of you created part marid can never deny your kind even if your part-parents may do so. You bear like us the gift of the sight beyond time, beyond matter.

She felt several protests and questions rising to her lips but she decided not to voice any of them. Somehow, somewhere inside her, the truth of what he was saying was dawning upon her. She had always known her father was not exactly her father and there was something different between her and her siblings. At every difficult moment she had gone through in her life, there had always been some sort of magically prepared way for her to be out of the quagmire she was in. She always knew it was no coincidence but she had a hard time realizing that it was her father from his unseen realm pulling the strings of fate in her favour.

  • Why do I not live within your world? she said after realizing that the marid was somehow reading her thoughts.
  • The djinn are not very welcoming to half djinns, he said. They fear them as they believe that humans are out to exterminate them. They do not realise that we can live in peace alongside each other as long as none fears the others.
  • You mentioned that half breeds like me bear the gift of the sight beyond time and matter. Do you mean I can predict the future as well as see what could have been changed in the past to avoid a certain future
  • Yes but it is a gift to use wisely and not to change things that would then make the future balloon out of control.
  • Why is it that I cannot see my own fate and future then?
  • That is because you are not transcending your own future. You have a sense of what is oncoming because of the deeply developed six sense that you have owing to the part marid nature of your DNA. You have, however, chosen to occult it owing to your fear of seeing beyond the creation of yourself. Indeed, if you were to see your future and given your current fears, it would be like an addiction where you would want to see beyond that future which represents your death and you would pass a kaleidoscope of images and sensations that would pertain to all the lives you’ve traversed until your reaching this birth. Given that all part marids are also powerful empaths, you would be condemning yourself to a great amount of torture just by passing through any of those kaleidoscopic lives you traverse if there had been any addiction or brutality within those lives.
  • I have a feeling I have done this on more than one occasion and I almost lost my sanity. I guess I should work more on the element of transcendence. I always thought that transcendence was the ability to reach stillness and start seeing everything from the point of the inner observer, thereby being out of time and out of matter.
  • It is that on a certain level. If you are, however, laden with fears that you have not confronted such as traumatic events in the past, then you never reach the proper level of transcendence. You only are at the fear based level and your attachment to your bodily presence enslaves you to see just one version of the truth instead of seeing it in its entirety.
  • How do I attain transcendence then?
  • Face your fears first, both known and unknown. Once you have done so, call upon me and I will let you know the true way of transcendence.

She nodded and he disappeared instantly. Inside she could feel welling up a thousand years of knowledge accumulated within past and future lives entering her mind. She could create items and sell them for a reasonable price using all the knowledge accumulated within her. If she created enough items from future thought that should pay a heavy reward and it should be an easy thing to do as she knew how to look into both the past and the present. She did not need the first marid’s help anymore. She vowed, however, to get to know more of the marid world as it was partially her world too and could help her belong to something finally.

Silence – Vargo

Aeon Flux

Aeon Flux

4 February 2017

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To transcend now free


Let it Be

Grant us immortality

From your Memory


Shelter me

Code Eternity

Withered dove

Become Love

Fly through Metamorphosis

Unveil me Isis


Shift axis

Muscle relaxes

Through stillness

My witness

Power of three to harness

Six leaves to undress


Desert proves

In Lovers the moves

Fear that sucks

Feathers plucks

Spirit restores sacred tree

Be land of plenty


Grief to lose

Shaking off the noose

Golden goose

Now let loose

Shines the rays through cloven hooves

Dancing in the grooves


Fiat Lux

Light that raises lucks

Aeon Flux

Hen that clucks

The golden egg give to me

Love magic set free


Reading of the poem: 

Courtesy Christian Schloe

Não desistas de mim – Pedro Abrunhosa

Pontes entre nós – Pedro Abrunhosa

Ilumina me – Pedro Abrunhosa

The Cleopatra Tales 1: Divine Union – Hieros Gamos

The Cleopatra Tales 1: Divine Union – Hieros Gamos

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Tidal flames will scend

Tidal flames will scend

7 January 2017

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We append

Bravest heart commend

You offend

Whom we send

Through deceit seek to befriend

Disbelief suspend


We portend

Blue Messenger fend

Harmful end

We did bend

Keep your focus Garden tend

Foresight we attend


The Mind wend

Red and Blue will blend

Renew trend

Forts defend

Now a helping hand extend

For all Hearts to mend


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Lives you spend

New Time will not lend

We dispend

You misspend

Trodden heart now see impend

The final godsend


Falsehood friend

All crimes to expend

Truth contend

Make amend

Earthen belly we distend

Shallow greed transcend



Sorrow we unbend

The words penned

Souls ascend

The flaming seagulls descend

Tidal flames will scend


Reading of the poem: 

Courtesy Christian Schloe

The Road – Jesse Cook

Into the Dark – Jesse Cook

Closer to Madness – Jesse Cook

Spanish Arabic Music – Jesse Cook

Rapture – Jesse Cook

When Night Falls – New Age – Jesse Cook

The Spirit Lovers: Chapter Six – Transcendence or the path to the Creation of the Essence

The Spirit Lovers

Chapter Six: Transcendence or the path to the Creation of the Essence

18-19 November 2015


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Rita sat to write again the words that flowed from the music just as I had told her to do so. I watched her through the looking glass as she sometimes got irritated with some of the words that meant nothing really to her. We knew she was a creature of Love so we always gave her the messages through imagery and music of Love and she picked up well the flow but did not necessarily understand what she was doing.


I look at you as you watch her too, wondering why we had not thought of sending the messages directly before. You glance back at me and whisper in my essence “You know that can never be done in the beginning. It has to be a dialog so that they can fit in comfortably in the beginning and then we just need to send additional prompts once they are mature. If we were to send isolated prompts right from the start they would just remain puzzled like with the number prompts we send”


“True” I acknowledge. I peer into what she is writing through her mind and am quite pleased at how she is getting used to the meaning albeit without fully figuring it out.


“In Time we will give her additional prompts and codes” you say as you warp into my essence. Let us go back to Source now, we can’t keep a watch over her all the Time.


“She is getting weary though when we orb with her in dreamtime” I say a bit worried. “I wonder whether she will get used to this constant change in Time that we need to submit her to so that her mind and heart open up more” I say out loud looking back at you.


Rita pauses in her writing and looks up with the distinct impression of someone staring at her. She calls out softly : Kayla, is that you? Do you want to see what I have written?


I move further from the looking glass and from you motioning you to remain silent and simply watch her as she gazes right through the looking glass seemingly at us. She smiles and waves and I stare back at you puzzle. “She can’t possibly see us” you say reassuringly but we both know that she somehow feels our presence on the other side.


Rita sits back at her rocking chair and proceeds to put the laptop again on her knees. Fine, she says, if you don’t want to talk to me, I will talk alone and you can answer me if you wish. She puts the words in the order that is flowing through her mind as she listens to the music and then publishes the resulting poem.


Circular dance in energy flow

19 November 2015


Orb essence of tides under lightbeams

Where blue meets the red split the square in sun’s radius


Crescent moon’s diffraction cracks’ halo

Still waters’ doorway to realities alternate


Fuse blue-red core in liquid portal

Parallel pivots a doorway to heartpath core split


Flow body through thin entrance’s seams

Knead essence liquid breath cross of levels five minus


Liquify shadows flames in the glow

Athena’s crescent moon in between worlds low vibrate


Waterfall in black queen’s hood regal

Liquid portal’s tight rope walk in condensed lightning lit


My hologram’s music here in dreams

Backward waters cut out Red on Blue, twin arcs rebus


Heartbeat frequency make rhythmic slow

Matter’s shape collapse in red expansion core dilate


Core in lightning’s backward loop’s fractal

Blue contraction coils gaseous substance emit


Breath essence loop in portals by teams

Axis magnet, Blue meets the red, metamorphosis


Circular dance in energy flow

Then rid the heart path core of low frequencies of hate


Spin through the portals twin parallel

Rotation of core seed through the molecular kit



Rita always wondered how the images just came up to her when she needed them. It was true that she used google to find images that would be suitable but still, how did those magical keywords then take her straight to those images that made her heart beat faster and assured her they were the perfect images that would go with the poem she had written? Rita sighed and stretched back in her chair. She was exhausted again and this Time she had slept off quite early so she did not understand how she had become this tired. She must ask Kayla she thought why so much Time was missing every instance that she felt this tired. She remembered going to the balcony but did not remember how she had got back to her bed and why it was that every bone in her body felt like it had been mishandled.


I perceive her thoughts and look at you questioningly. “Perhaps we ought to tell her more” you say quietly before warping into me again so we may reach her.


Rita almost drops the laptop from her knees, jumping with a start when we materialise next to her. Kayla, Kalen, she says surprised to see us fully materialised in front of her. What brings you here now? I thought you did not want to talk to me, she adds.


“We thought you deserved some answers” you say looking at her with a smile


Oh that definitely, Rita says smiling back


“I know you have been feeling weary lately” I say


Yes, there are also parts of the Time when we get together that just seem to disappear, Rita says. Besides, I really don’t understand why I am so tired even when I sleep early, she adds.


“Well” I say “we take you with us during dreamtime to show you more of the alternate reality we have set up and also how we go about transcending the matter. Of course we don’t have any real dense matter left where we are so we have to place you within a shield when we take you with us or you would lose all the dense matter that is within you and not be able to come back here” I add


What do you mean you take me with you within a shield in dreamtime, Rita says looking at us blankly


“We put you in a preserving cocoon and orb away with you like we orb ourselves from one place to another as you have seen us do” you say. “The only difference is that you do not transform like we do but we carry you along preserved and the resulting compression and expansion as we move through the portals is what leaves you exhausted as you feel the effect even though you are not fully subject to the forces. We only do this rarely though as it requires a lot of energy to transport you with us and we also create ripples in Time when we do so. We’ve had a long talk with Mother about this and she said it was necessary in order for you to expand properly so we thought we could spare the extra energy it cost us. We took some of it from the energy we stored when Martin and you were together anyway” you add jokingly.


Rita is still looking at us blankly and does not seem to get what we are telling her. You mean you are like aliens who abduct human beings and take them to other places and then these human beings come back talking about horrible experiments that they have been subjected to? she questions


“Don’t be silly Rita” I tell her firmly. “Were you ever subjected to any torture from us? Besides remember that we are no aliens. We are you and you are us, we just don’t happen to share the same Time and density of matter” I add


What do I know about what you do to me, Rita says slowly, a sense of doubt and mistrust clouding her face before it clears again. She knows intuitively that they have done nothing of the sort and knows Kayla enough to be certain that she would never torture her. Wait a minute, Rita says. If you are taking me with you, how come nobody around has aged when we come back? I had read and even seen movies where the person comes back to find that everyone they knew has become old or died in the meantime…


“You are being silly again Rita” you cut in. “We have mastered Time and can move in and out of a given moment with the precision of more than a nanosecond. There is no chance that anything would have been altered in the meantime. You are not moving in Time with us with Time actually flowing. We orb through zero Time in space until the point of our journey and orb back in zero time mainly using the portals that take us through Time’s fractals”


Rita starts laughing nervously when you say that. Speaking of fractals I can tell you I feel every bone in my body fractured in a million pieces, she says before adding and I am not sure that you have nothing to do with that.


“Well sometimes the journey is longer and your body suffers the various compressions and expansions as I said before. In fact, you often keep the trace of those shifts within your matter which is why some days you wake up with your body totally swollen and other days your body has got rid of its excess liquid again. As you must have understood by now with all the prompts we sent you, the portals are liquid and we use the fact that a large part of you is already water and only a small part needs preserving in the cocoon” I explain.


Well if you can orb me around and compress and expand me as you please, why don’t you give me a nice slim body to begin with and then do with it as you please during the journeys, Rita says half joking half-serious. In fact for that matter, you can also knock a few years off my face and body and that would not be a pity, she adds with an impish grin.


“Have you not noticed how your face keeps morphing? We even had you take many pictures after the first times that we were experiencing orbing with you back in 2010 and 2011 so that you would be able to track the changes within your organism. This actually serves as a reference for our future trials with others. Every Time we had some setbacks in our trajectory because of your shield that did not allow us to orb straight through the portals you had somewhat aged so we had to remove some of your age and we did not always get it right in the beginning. Besides, we also had to add or remove some of your dense matter – what you call fat tissues – and that was also somewhat approximate in the beginning as we had lost the agility in dealing with the dense matter that we no longer were used to” I tell Rita


“We’ve got it right now” you cut in smilingly “you must have noticed that you tend to always more or less look the same apart from some exceptions where you have been in overdrive and we cannot put you back together properly” you add


This whole thing sounds totally whacky, Rita says pensively. How do I know that I am not just simply as mad as a hatter and that I am dreaming all of this as well as literally imagining the both of you and Mother visiting me and telling me all of this. How can I know with certainty I am not imagining the flow of words that reach me and that it is not mere fantasy that dictates them to me? she adds looking at us with a rebellious glint in her eye.


You laugh and pull her towards us and we embrace her allowing our warmth to perfuse her body and still her beating heart. When she is pacified we slowly release her and she stands straight again looking at us with dreamy eyes.


I don’t understand most of the words or at least let us say that I don’t understand what it really means and I sometimes feel so useless piecing them together with the impression that this will be worth nothing and will never help anyone at all, Rita says her voice slightly shaking


“Don’t you worry” I say “Aside from the other archetypes that are also prompted and recognise the messages, there are also some people who will be able to decode properly what you have as output” I add smiling at her reassuringly.


But I don’t feel like anybody is actually using that input, Rita says. It all seems like an utter and full waste of your efforts and mine. Besides, I can’t keep doing this as not only I feel there is no ultimate real purpose in getting the information out there but I also earn absolutely nothing from doing this. I have to tend to my other responsibilities and ensure that I am getting proper income and this is taking out much of my Time that could be used in a more beneficial way, she adds a bit contrite.


“We have always provided for you and you have never lacked anything as you must have realised” you say looking at her intently. “Did you not realise that we have kept you maintained in this path so that you will evolve and despite your stubbornness in trying to go back to your old way of life we have kept reorienting you. The last time we did it was a bit brutal I admit but we had no choice as you were drifting back to a dark sleep where your awareness was fading away and we could not afford losing you after all the insight we had diffused within you over the years” you add slowly stroking her hair to calm her


I am sorry I am so full of doubt and rebellion but sometimes when I look around me I wonder if there is really anything worth saving in this world, Rita says feebly.


“Did we not show you what is worth saving?” I tell her softly


Yes you did Kayla, she says apologetically. I have to admit that every time I am feeling forlorn and drift away from this world to which I feel no kinship you offer me insights into its beauty and relevance for us all. Every time I walk in the garden and look around me I see your prompts, the birds in the skies flying in certain forms, the glimmer amongst the trees, the shades of flowers and the winding of their bloom, their beautiful fragrance, the glory of the sun as it warms my neck and the wonderful laughter of the children in the neighbourhood as they race past the house, she continues wistfully. I am grateful to you for when you whisper to my attention all these things as they allow me to brace myself and smile through another day, waiting for the Time when the music will flow and my fingers will pen that flow into something that someone, somewhere will understand and decode appropriately that we may all be saved and be able to finally go back home, she adds.


“Stay focused Rita. Do not lose hope. Mother has placed a lot of hope and faith in you. She has given you the wisdom of the owl and the heart of the lark. Use both in full balance and everything will be alright” I say before hugging her. “We have to go now” I tell her.


“Promise that you will keep doing what you are meant to do” you add, hugging her too.


I will, Rita says a bit tearfully. I need to get some energy now as I still feel depleted from the loss of Martin. Will you send me a prompt that will restore my energy?” she adds hopeful


“We are sending you new prompts that not only will restore your energy but will also give visual indications on that which is required to successfully collapse matter and cross the liquid portals” I tell her with a smile.


How will that be useful to anyone but myself, Rita cries out. I don’t understand what it says. I wish I had done Physics and chemistry as I initially felt inclined to instead of IT and economy as I finally chose, she blurts out.


“That is another story and is not really your fault. As we told you before, we have competitors who have come here but have remained enticed by the dense matter’s vanity enhancement and using this world as a means to entertain themselves amassing wealth in the meantime thanks to their knowledge of the portals and of Time’s loops. They often interfere with the ones we choose, trying to spin them out of balance and out of the chosen path. Sometimes they succeed but with those we protect, they are unable to affect fully. I will tell you more about that during another visit” I say. “We need to leave now as there are many things that need to be done and we are still not ubiquitous like Mother so need to actually leave you in order to tend to these other matters but we will be back soon, don’t you worry” you add


Rita watches us leave and as we leave, I throw some flowers on her path, leading her to the prompts that she hungrily latches on to, listening with bliss to the music as she fervently types away our encounter.





Oh, durga, divine mother, destroy my doubts, my fears and my longings, so I may be free to follow thee and find my destiny

Oh, Durga, divine mother, set me free of anger, hatred and belonging, so i can follow the path of my heart, in eternal surrender to thee, knowing I am thy child, resting in thy arms, knowing that thy are my mother, taking care of me in all circumstances

Oh, Durga, let me follow in thy footsteps, be brave as a warrior, fear no evil, be unwavering in my love and compassion, surrendering to the eternal ocean of bliss

Oh, Durga, lead me, not into temptation, but to thy heart, which is the nectar of the gods of immortality, teach me to be humble and brave, to become the one that I am

Durga, to your feet I bow down, and put my sorrows, my worries and all my distractions, so I can be really an instrument of thy power and compassion

Durga, mother of all, bestower of wisdom, may I drink from thy breasts, and rest in thy lap, knowing I am safe in all the world, asking for thy protection, nurtured like an infant, resting in her mother’s arms

Oh, durga, to you I set my heart, my courage, my love and my will

Take me as thy intrument, and use me to bring peace and the power of compassion into this world.

Oh, Durga, my heart is your heart. Take it as thine. And I am willingly your servant, lover, partner and pupil. I am yours. Thy bread and wine.


Taruna – Om Shanti

Aum Shanti Shanti Shanti – Shiuli Subaya, Album Raa Maa

Durga Gayatri Mantra – Shiuli Subaya, Almbum Raa Maa



I, flying Phoenix

I, flying Phoenix

4 November 2015

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I walked into Love

Fearful, aligning my steps

A timid creature


Love watched me serene

Blowing at me with her winds

Playfully sowing


I walked in bubble

Made of the finest white glass

The texture of frost


Love picked at me slow

Her pecking bird of heavens

Slow delivery


The silent tremors

As she hovered around me

Oh the knees that shake!


I craned slight my neck

She drew blood with her sharp fangs

The bloodied retreat


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I watched her now scared

Loathing her slight ugly form

Recollecting wits


Butterfly hovers

Caterpillar a mere slug

Loathing slimy trail


Love cast at me rocks

Hurling all within without

Sheared me, set me free


Naked and exposed

With my last shuddering sighs

I bowed to her slight


At last she then smiled

Mother and Father embraced

They showed me true Flames


Fire all consumed

From ashes I then emerged

I, flying Phoenix


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The process of your own creation could be a distorted one if you do not listen carefully to the rain and do not understand correctly the synchronicities

Sacrifice is in leaving the greater for the greatest knowing the tool is not the task.

Silence – Vargo

Porspero’s books – opening crédits

Talking to Satie – Alessandra Celletti

Venez venez haine implacable – Gluck

Bliss – A Quiet Conversation

Giovanni Marradi – Just for You

Alessandra Celletti – I Discend to You, You Ascend to Me

The Sacrifice – Michael Nyman

Shatter me – Lindsey Stirling

Rumi – One Whisper of the Beloved

Voices of Infinity – Yakuro

Rumi – Gently, gently open your eyes

Vargo – The moment

On the Wings of Love – Fusion of Rumi and Hafiz poetry

Aurora Borealis

Aurora Borealis

2 November 2015

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Look for the True birth

Shrieking at the brilliant lights

The wolf howls in grief


Listen carefully

Open up your heart

The roads unwinding


I carry you Twin

Over the skies of Father

Inside the Mother


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When you see vision

Journey into the heartpath

Your stages then count


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Two, Seven, Nine, Ten

How long is it your journey?

I will see your birth


Look at Northern Star

Aurora Borealis

She rises within


Transcendence is near

My spirit roams the vast Earth

I am that I will

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Lex Van Someren – Aurora Northern Light

Lex Van Someren – Jourey to the Heart

Lex Van Someren – Born Forever

The Spirit Lovers: Chapter Four – Heartpath or the Way of Love, Time and the teachings of the Essence

The Spirit Lovers

Chapter Four: Heartpath or the Way of Love, Time and the teachings of the Essence

20-29 October 2015

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You and I flow instantly back to Rita and Martin and are surprised to see Rita alone wailing with only a pile of Harold’s clothes on the bed next to her.

“What happened?” I ask, still cloaked in my essence, astonished though I have seen many times before a wavering in their essences and instantly picking up on your response, I understand what happened. This is the first time though that it has happened while their physical bodies were in presence. I scrutinize the surroundings and sees remnants of Martin’s essence locked within the glow of the neutrinos looking down at Rita sadly.

You decide to go speak to Martin’s physical being and your essence vapourises leaving me with an inkling of the feeling of incompleteness and I marvel at how these entities before us can handle this feeling as it must be an overpowering sensation of separation for them when they are not together.

“Rita, don’t cry, let me explain to you better what happened. You might remember the time I talked to you in your head about energy distortions, choices and the flow of Time” I say softly, holding her by the shoulders as her whole body shakes with the uncontrollable sobs. I radiate some of my essence into her so her sobs slowly subside and I hope that her agony has not split and killed other parts of the essence elsewhere which were not ready for such agony.

It is so painful, Kayla, you cannot imagine, Rita tells me her eyes glazed and dull with the pain. I cannot understand this horrible pain I feel and most of all I cannot understand how Martin disappeared. We were making love and all of a sudden he started to shiver and then seemed to burst from the inside before he turned ghostlike and vanished into the cupboard. I took out all of Harold’s clothes and looked through them as I could smell him in them but he was in none of them, she adds her head indicating the pile of clothes next to her naked body.

“Let me explain again how the flow works, especially with changing choices” I say again gently to her as I take her by the shoulders and turn her face towards me. Her agony is returning so I warp into her fully and shudder as I am pierced by the might of it and wonder how these beings are capable of so much love and happiness and still able to retain so much fear and hurt. While I radiate in her, I feel the peace returning to her frame and slowly her body temperature starts going back to normal. As the fever subsides, I warp out of her and materialise out of my essence so that she may see me fully.

Rita gasps as she sees me crying out: You look so beautiful Kayla but you look different from the time before when Martin and I saw you.

“Yes” I say “I change forms depending on the mood you put me in”. “Coming back to the matter of how the flow works, you see, somewhere in your past or in the past of another of your manifestations that interacts very closely with you, it would seem like you have changed the choice of being with your twinflame. If you have changed that choice in the past then Martin can no longer be with you here in this now because he does not exist anymore here though a part of his essence would still linger confused until it reintegrates his physical being again elsewhere where he has been projected. Kalen has gone to handle the confusion of that Martin who probably is as confused as you if he even remembers you fully and what happened between you. I cannot even begin to explain the confusion and pain that you both must be feeling back up the River of Time.” I add softly, looking into her eyes and trying to make sure she is understanding what I am saying.

Rita merely looks at me blankly. I don’t understand she says. You did explain to me that Time flows both frontwards and backwards and you did explain about choices and how they moved us into alternate realities but you did not tell me that it could completely swap our existences to different possibilities even after we had made those choices. I chose Martin and sacrificed myself for months on end and I even opened the Heartpath on more than one occasion, just like you had taught me to. I resisted all the pain, all the small deaths both of mine and his darknesses during the opening of the core of the Heartpath and continued to hold on to him. I did all of that and lived through hell and beyond to be able to come to this place. I never understood completely the clues you had strewn on my path but followed them all faithfully and even when he would not see I still persevered, only closing the core when it became too unbearable for me. How can you tell me that I have changed that choice in the past? Did you not see me here with Martin just a couple of days ago and even just yesterday? I have not changed my choice, I cannot have, I am here, I was here with him, we both came together just as it was supposed to be and we made love… her voice breaks and trails off as her sobs start again and I radiate again into her. I cannot help feeling sorry for her even though I know that she has to face the consequences of her own choice.

“Rita” I whisper softly when she has regained a bit of her peace. “You have to understand that it must be you who have made such a choice because you will not be able to look past the choices that you don’t understand. Only you can help yourself now if you wish to. Kalen will investigate with Martin too if he has changed his choice in the past but if not, then you will have to understand what you did and if you choose to now, you can undo it and flow back into another now.”

Rita still shivering slightly and shaking her head answers: I did not change my choice Kayla. I know I cannot have done that.

“Well then let us travel back and see which occurrence has a ripple in the river of Time” I tell her trying to be patient although both you and I know very well by now that they both have changed their choices in their past. He because he was looking only with the mind and she because she had retained fears from remnants of her ego and then chosen to let him go. What I still can’t understand though is how she has still been able to keep her physical presence in the same place and retained full memories of their physical contact in that alternate now. I quickly check with you and you confirm that he has retained close to no memories of her, except some fleeting thoughts and an overpowering sensation of a love he has felt. You tell me that he is still connecting it to that lost love he had chosen in the past and thinks that it is her he has lost again. I try to break the news to her gently as I ponder on whether to really allow her to travel with me in the flow of time as she is already a nervous wreck and will not be able to handle the surge of emotions from the torn selves we will encounter in the Passage of Time. “Rita” I whisper softly “Kalen and I have found out that both of you have chosen to separate”.

Her body jolts upright and I see the essence of her wavering high above her as she is overtaken by the giddiness of being unaligned with her essence again. You must be joking, she almost screams at me. I have not changed anything and I cannot be here if I had changed anything. You told me that once we changed our choices, we never went back to the same flow of Time because nothing remained the same anymore. Yet I am still here and I remember fully our exchanges in our bodily frames. You are lying, you are both just sadists, she hurls at me viciously, her tears spilling all over the floor blood red and with remnants of essence writhing in them. I warp into her again and force her down on the bed holding her bodily frame, rocking her with my essence so that she regains some peace again. I look at you as you flow back to my side and exchange with you silent.

“I don’t understand how she is still here” I tell you softly still caressing her hair as she continues to shiver partially consoled. “What did you find with him” I ask you in your essence and you tell me how you found him in his bed a bit bewildered and dazed but apparently oblivious of the fact that a few instants before he had been making love to her and even less aware of the fact that he had actually encountered the woman of his dreams in the House of Love. You tell me that you were able to find out from him how he was still regretting a woman he had loved a few months ago and could not understand how he was separated from her while he had just had such vivid dreams of her. I wonder whether I should tell her this as we know the ripple effect this creates. We ourselves had some difficulty understanding from Source how this worked as when we tell her, we know she will then make that choice which will bring her back to this alternate now.

“It must be done” you tell me within my essence and I nod, my essence quivering with the advance knowledge of the additional pain I am about to cause.

“Rita” I begin softly. “Martin does not remember you anymore. He has again started confusing you with the other woman. You remember how I told you that when you open the Heartpath core channel, you will pour out your love directly and intensely and receive directly and intensely all that your twinflame may put your way”.

Rita stares at me with a sudden light clearing up the dull film over her eyes. Yes, she say, I remember what you told me about that in my head. You said that I had to understand well the sacrifice I was about to make and be willing to be eventually killed several times over depending on what would come my way. I was willing and whatever Martin hurled my way I took it all and just put it all back into my creation just like you said I should do. I used all the parts of the clues that you handed me and even started adding images and music to my poetry as you had mentioned how additional parts of creation would help the essence recognise and it did recognise me. How was I to know that he was so remotely connected to his essence that he would never understand its whispers? I called upon you several times when the pain was too much to handle; we both did in our own ways, not understanding what was happening to us. I did not know your name then and just called you Mother as I called Kalen Father back then. She almost smiles but the downward trend of her mouth makes it look like a rictus.

“Well my darling girl” I say, putting my hands on her shoulders again “Martin still is in that same state of mind. I told you, You can only see with Heart and you were connected enough with your essence to see with the Heart. You had got rid of enough darkness to be in the light of your essence and feel it flow through you directly almost unencumbered but he had not. He always chose to see only with the mind and all that he saw only increased his darkness and anguish. I already warned you once against the sacrifice as I told you he is not ready yet, too full of unpolished lust and egoist instincts from his bodily frame. I told you to wait until he was ready to sublime that lust into the primal energy force of Love it was destined to become but you would not Listen to the rain of pain knowledge I showered upon you then. You thought your love was strong enough to withstand the pain and that you would be able to make him see. Unfortunately your first etheric contact with him happened at the same time that he was starting an affair with another lady and he has latched onto her all the feelings of love and peace that you projected towards him through the core of the Heartpath. You did help him as he slowly moved from that egotistical being he had been and he sometimes even saw you fleetingly and exchanged with you in dreams, felt your love and your exchanged contact even using the words of that implicitly known synchronicity but he never really connected properly to his etheric being. He never took that leap of faith that you awaited eagerly, yearning for his heart to actually see beyond the illusion.” I break off as I sense the feeling of shock going through her and creating the ripple.

It is all lost then, she says as she slowly starts fading before you grab her, warping into her essence and jolting her up again fully bright and sparkling in essence. Martin, she screams with delight.

“No, I am Kalen” you say, slowly disengaging from her essence. “I just needed you to stay as we wanted to understand better by interacting with your essence how come you stayed behind while he projected himself into his alternate now almost seamlessly. We cannot understand yet how come this has not happened with you and you are still here fully aware of everything that unfolded in Time.”

As soon as he says that we both feel her, the true revered Mother of all of us, as she appears fiercely beautiful and unbearably full of light, even for us.

Rita has closed her eyes and is swaying saying Mother, you have come back to me. You are here again and you are not Kayla. Who are you that have walked softly picking me up each time I have fallen all these years. I know you, you were there from the beginning. I remember you drawing me out lovingly and twisting softly my head as my bodily Mother pushed me out of her forcing me out of memories of the blue swirling void and through the black warmth into the cold light outside. I remember your beautiful blue face as I cried from the harshness of the light and the cold that invaded my essence as you smiled and told me “Welcome my child. Be blessed as I have come to assist your birth and through it my own birth into this world. See and feel for me as I have forgotten to feel for this world when they slowly covered my eyes and He as I went back to sleep from this Time”.

I remember seeing him, Father, as blue as you are, looking at me as my essence danced into this world, her steps replicating his own as he faded into the fog blessing me as he left. He had whispered then that he would come for me when my call was at its shrillest though I had never seen him since then. I only saw one of his messengers, a blue one like him who taught me about Love when I was five years old and sitting alone in my room, Rita adds in a dreamlike voice, her eyes still closed, her body swaying.

We both look at each other and at revered Mother who smiles back at us sweetly though her eyes stay all at once fierce and tender, still focused on Rita who is swaying. “I am Kali” she says to Rita who immediately stops swaying and looks at her through her essence which slowly cuddles into the palm of Mother’s hand while Rita falls back on the bed inert. A second blue form emerges from the fog surrounding Mother and we both recognise our archetype Source Father Shiva as he smiles at us his hair swirling around him like snakes ready to strike. Father slowly picks up Rita’s essence from Mother’s hand and flows it back into her and she wakes up in a jolt before recognising him and saying in a dreamlike way again “Father, you have come for me like you said you would. I remember how you did not move though back in Time, only looking away unmoved while Mother tended to the wounds”

“I had to, my child” Father says in his thousand voices and as Rita’s bodily frame shakes and almost splits he reduces its numbers so that she may bear its effects. “You have to face the consequences of your choices alone and understand them before we can help you with them. I knew anyway that Mother would tend to the wounds as I am stillness without her intent”.

I had not chosen yet though Father, Rita speaks her voice a pitch higher and her eyes now half-open, gazing downward as the light is too intense for her to bear. I was merely pondering what to choose as he was still misguided by the mind and the ego.

“No my child. You had already chosen and simply had to understand your choice to see it properly. Your choice was born out of the fear and not out of the Love unlike what Mother had advised you when you were being flown into your bodily mother’s womb and the mass of matter that she was transforming into what became you” Father says in thunders while Rita still shakes from it. “We had also sent one of our brothers to inform you about love and you welcomed him, worshipped him even but did not truly understand what he told you. Love is only Love, it can be nothing else than that. It cannot be hurt, ego, darkness or even light. It just is and manifests itself in everything that surrounds you as we have woven it into the very fabric of this world, every Time and every matter as well as the space between that matter’s particles of light. You cannot not see it except if you are not seeing with the Heart and …”

I have, for once, forsaken my heart, Rita adds softly interrupting Father who smiles knowingly.

“Yes” he answers smiling at her face that is burning light with this new knowledge. “You have chosen to see with the mind, with the fear of the remnants of your ego and you have chosen to let go of your love, the strongest connecting point to your twinflame and that choice has split all the alternate realities of it”

“Why is she here still then?” we both ask and immediately understand from Father’s essence as it ebbs and flows through us partially.

“She sees both with Heart and Mind” I say turning towards Rita again and attempting to explain it to her “You chose with the mind but your heart refused to endorse that choice so your Heart brought you all the way here through the River of Time fully conscious of yourself but not fully conscious of your choice as you could not see past that choice you refused to understand”

Rita opens partially her eyes and instantly regrets it as she almost turns blind in her bodily frame while mother showers portions of her essence on her eyes so that she may not remain blind in the physical. Rita lowers her gaze again almost closing her eyes and realises that her eyesight will never be the same again. I know how I made that choice, she says quietly, her eyes downcast. I thought that as he had made a choice, even though it was with his mind and it was misguided, I had to respect that choice and therefore preserve myself. I was not looking with the eyes of the Heart and I chose to ignore then that I could still choose to stay connected and watch over him while continuing my life in the alternate reality. I think I allowed my ego and fear to speak within me and overtake the sound of my heartbeat telling me to stay in the Love. I did not learn my own lesson of humility and acceptance while I was arrogantly attempting to teach Martin the same lesson. I let my sense of higher spirituality and knowledge get the better of me and therefore fed my own ego while I was judging him for being weak and so closely connected to his ego instead of to his real etheric self. That ego then quickly turned around and became me, choosing in spite of me with the eye of the mind that only saw a future condemned and refused to see the alternate futures of togetherness anymore. The instant I accepted the loss of that twin future, it disappeared in my mind’s eye and with it therefore Martin disappeared because he was only seeing everything with the mind and not with the Heart. I was seeing with both though so a part of me made it back here to this twin reality.

Rita straightens her shoulders and eyes still downcast says Forgive me Father for I have sinned.

Father looks at her gently and says “There is no sin where there is Truth” and Rita smiles back at him as she feels in her essence his heavenly smile.

“You see” I cut in “others before you when they were bearing double messages of different archetypes have lost their way although the most prominent versions of them have found their way back quickly. The most important part is to forgive yourself when you realise that you have wronged yourself and possibly others. You only have to stay in the Love without judging anything or anyone, not even yourself and as Father says, there is no sin where there is Truth. You must have heard of Jesus, he is hardly even believed to have existed today and his bodily existence is confused with the various other archetypes of Love that preceded him and these lost essences even question his existence from the very fact of the synchronicities with those other archetypes”.

Rita nods her head and says I know he existed because the blue messenger who came to me and told me his essence was the archetype of Love and was called Krisna had already told me before that he had come to this world in many forms after his form as Krisna. He told me that Jesus was just the messenger of Love. When I had asked him about compassion he had smiled and told me that the archetype of compassion was not within Jesus although he had it ingrained in him through his twin essence and when I asked him how it was possible that he had a twin essence he merely smiled and said but I too have a twin essence my child. He told me his twin essence was Radha and she held the other archetype which went with love and it was compassion. Immediately before the question materialised in my confused brain – I was only a five year old child then – he informed me that Jesus also had a twin essence and it was Mary Magdalene. I had not heard of her then and confused her with the Mother Mary of the chapel in the Convent I studied at but he told me that it was not her although it was her all the same. When I looked at him confused he merely smiled and told me that one day I would understand how you could be one thing and not it at the same time. He also told me that time and time again love came to the world and had to die until it was the right Time for love to be the only thing that existed. He told me that every Time, Love had to sacrifice itself knowing that it had to continuously evolve until all beings within this world had learned to live in the love and not otherwise. He added that when that Time came, we would all transcend into a different kind of world. I had forgotten that talk and the other talks I had with him as he visited me frequently growing my love of him although I had to hide it from my bodily mother who disapproved this connection. My bodily father though often looked at me knowingly and seemed to understand although I had never really voiced anything out. I still don’t understand though why love had to continue dying and why Jesus of all people who was so pure and so full of Love, bringing so much love and proof of its existence to others also had to die.

“You see”, I interrupt again, “Jesus was not the Source, he was merely a part of it, an archetype of it. A part of Jesus though had grown to increasingly identify itself fully with Source and to reject portions of the teachings on the archetype that he himself had come to teach to the world. When Source realised that this earth-bound essence of Love was being confused with the whole of it and that even despite that and all the miracles of love showered on the people, they would not understand the ultimate message, Source informed Jesus that he too must die because his message of Love was simply not going through and people did not understand it because of the emergence of an alternate self within Jesus himself that he needed to transcend. That alternate self was diluting the message of his own essence and the people he had come to guide to walk in the Love simply did not know what they were doing and would ultimately end up killing the Love archetype in their hearts if it were not allowed to regenerate again in a different form, at a different Time.”

But he was resurrected according to the Christian tradition, Rita cries out adding, and he was not misguided. He was only Love and never had an alternate self. How can you say such a thing? How can such pure love be considered to have been tainted? She adds disbelievingly.

“It is a simple thing really” you step in to say “Jesus was also manifested into this Earthly realm and even though he retained a larger connection to his etheric self and his ultimate archetype, he was also to an extent subject to the meanders of this world of matter and occasionally allowed his bodily self to vibrate unaligned and create an alternate self that was not ego although it was slightly out of the way of his archetype. In order for him to realign and become his archetype of Love again so that his mission would ultimately be accomplished, he had to die in this world and yes he was resurrected in his etheric form but his bodily remains had dissolved instantly as with all the other pure archetypes of Love sent to this worldly realm when they flow back into pure love again. Source had explained to Jesus that he had to go back to it and regenerate before coming back as a pure unadulterated archetype again when the Time was ripe. Basically, Love had to die and be remembered for its qualities and lived through several bodily frames that were fully open to the evolving of the archetype so that it could evolve through them in this world until it was ready to be regenerated again, pure” you say.

Rita shook her head, not convinced. Why would it have to die? It could simply be redirected as an archetype and evolve naturally through other beings ready to realise it. Why did it have to die? she added almost in a whisper as her heart was already telling her the answer.

“You know the answer” Kali said fiercely

“Mother, she is still weak, please let me explain to her in the ways of her world” Kayla interrupted gently.

Kali took a step back, her blazing eyes fierce though compassionate as she studied my crestfallen face. “Never mind” she said in a softer tone. “I am leaving you in charge of her guidance and make sure that I do not have to come here and lap up her bloodied essences back into her again” she added quietly before dissolving in the fog together with Shiva.

“It had to die because the world was not ready for it then because even its archetype had strayed from its mission and become slightly confused with its bodily frame on occasion. Jesus had worked with his twinflame Mary Magdalene but often he would lapse in his essence and let the bodily frame make the choices that only his etheric self should have made clearly.”

We cannot see past the choices we don’t understand, Rita whispered softly. We have all of us forsaken love, we have all of us chosen to live only in the mind and in the matter it produces without looking at what is beyond, the energy, the love that connects us all. As each of us understands this choice, we will then awaken to a world where Love will manifest again fully as an archetype and does not have to die anymore, she adds.

“Yes my darling child” I tell her pleased with her progress as I beam at you through our joined essences. “You have understood your choice and now you can see past it and allow the River of Time to flow both ways again for you. Now all you have to do is see whether you want to maintain that choice or change it in whatever way you wish”

Rita smiles as she opens her eyes and looks at me fully seeing my essence. I have made up my mind she says softly and will put it all across as usual through the creative output you have granted me to express myself.

“Yes my darling child” you tell Rita. “Source decided that the twinflames should be clearly indicated their mission when the connection started fully and understand that the mission is more important than their attachment to each other. This has now become the work of the twinflames” you add. “They must come together first joining in Love and working through the evolution of that Love as well as helping other beings who come to them with their relational problems until everyone, everywhere in this realm has finally understood and accepted the nature of Love. It is only when that happens that you will all reach what some of you have identified as the Golden Age. Unfortunately many misguided beings have interpreted in different ways these teachings and only use the concurrent teachings of Love and the Flow of Time to create alternate realities that suit them on a very material level instead of helping the Love evolve. Even those twinflames who have not been able to connect for whatever reason should still continue to live within their archetype be it Love or any other archetype which actually all go back to the same ultimate reality which is Source. In every choice of connecting though, you need to understand what you have chosen without judging either yourself or the other twinflame, without forcing the connection but without forsaking it either”

Rita smiles at Kalen and marvels how much his projection of him as she sees him now reminds her of Martin and of his essence when it beamed at her through the looking glass opposite her bed. Don’t leave me alone too long though Kayla, she say. I count on your guidance as you sow the clues of synchronicity for my past self so that I may trace myself back here and hopefully with Martin. If he does not come, I hope you will come for me in the future when I am an old and tired woman just as you did for Nina and that you will take me back with you so that I may ease this ache within me. He had promised me that he would not act like Harold did. He seemed so much in love and so truthful when he made those promises to me as we lay in that bed and before that on that couch. I can slowly even remember all those future times when he was here beside me and we were growing old together. I don’t understand his choice though but hope that he will be able to understand it and see through the world of illusion that cloaks his heart and misguides his mind.

“I hope so too my darling” I say softly embracing her as we get ready to leave her again. She stands up to wave goodbye, resolutely in the now of her alternate reality and as we leave we see her through the web of Time which is fading curled up in her bed her nose buried in Harold’s clothes which still bears the smell of Martin’s essence. “I feel sad for her pain whether it is temporary or permanent” I tell you, my essence already wavering at her sadness though it is less acute as she seems to have gained some sort of a new-found confidence in her alternate reality.

“She will be fine” you answer in my essence, drawing me closer as we warp back on the way towards Source.

Meanwhile, Rita wakes up from the dream with the vivid impression of having gone somewhere though she cannot remember exactly where. She remembers the Time spent together with her twinflame, the love, the agony and Pain of separation, the longing. After pacing throughout the room she finally understands now that the Rita of her dreams as she had chosen to call her is actually her. She slowly sits on the couch and begins writing the Fourth chapter of this incredible recount, her hands trembling as she fully realises now that she was not piecing together a novel created from parts of an imaginary dream but she is writing her own story as it unfolds backwards and frontwards through this flowing, coursing, raging, beautiful and yet often agonising River of Time. Her choice is made or rather made again and she feels more than she knows with her mind that Kayla approves of it as does Mother. After all, whatever the outcome, in Love, there is only Love…

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True Love, Ego and “Death” or some personal experiences in Transcendence and Twinflames

True Love, Ego and “Death” or some personal experiences in Transcendence and Twinflames

21 October 2015

Courtesy Rassouli


We all hear that only two things are certain in this world, i.e. Death and Taxes and we all tend to acknowledge both of these are primal truths of our world. In reality, only one of them, Death, is true in a certain sense while the other, Taxes, is just an invention of this world and as illusory as the dimension it was created in.

As a foreword after this brief statement, I would like to remind that you may send me emails to the address within my “about” page but please refrain from sending me end of the world type admonishing or hate emails because those will simply go unanswered as usual. Please also do not send me requests for giving you follow-up which would actually require medical assistance because I am not such a practitioner. Although I have helped some of you in the past with personal issues, I only do that on the basis of “listening” to your woes and giving personal, non-medical advice. If you have harrowing mental problems, I suggest you get in touch with a mental health practitioner first and I am happy to just give some advice and comfort as a back-up support system.

Getting back to the world of illusions as it correctly or as is the case most of the times incorrectly decodes the energy that encompasses it, Taxes are obviously a construct and they only thrive because we allow them to. Taxes serve a system whereby individuals can be bound to giving up their actual purpose in life thereby becoming a grey shadow of themselves and continuously feeding the system of slavery by devoting their time and life energy to enhancing the system’s power. Did it never strike you as odd that some actually had to give up almost half their earnings for spending of a nature they probably would never have approved of had they known where the money was going? The point of taxes is, however, not my current preoccupation so I will leave it aside for now.

Coming to the statement, the actual only certain thing in this world and any beyond it is Love. Not the shadow, fancy love that most people are open to and that is constructed on the basis of appearances but actual True Love that many ridicule because they are unable to attain it, bound as they are by the beguiling charms of a life sunk into the matter without any other higher purpose.

True Love is that which transcends the matter, the illusion, the charm, that which is only made of one individualised Soul talking to another individualised Soul. I say individualised because we will one day realise fully that we are all truly connected and that the individualisation of souls is merely an experimental matter that happens within this existence for various reasons. For brevity, I will refer to the Individualised Soul as merely the Soul although it should be understood that the Soul in reality could be called the Higher Soul which then would encompass a different level including all the parts of Consciousness that chooses to manifest itself. Souls when individualised can be divided in three levels of existence: the bodily representation, the etheric self and the spirit self. Spirit self and etheric self interact quite freely but these two interact less with the bodily representation except when it has reached a higher level of consciousness at which time the communication channel opens up internally for certain works to be done on the material plane.

Not all Souls are capable of talking to one another because most have lost the capacity to communicate in Soul language which can be considered akin to telepathy. When latched on to the bodily representation, when experiencing the various thrilling or demotivating aspects of the world of matter, the soul gets confused with the bodily aspirations and communication and loses the capacity of communicating properly in soul language. When it does keep portions of this capacity, the communications are not routed in the correct way and mostly get tangled in the web of communications of all the souls that continue trying to establish communication channels.

When two souls are able to establish some sort of a communication channel and are able to talk for a while, this is then called a soulmate connection and some work is done via this connection. It may happen that such a connection is also lived on the bodily plane by an actual physical relationship which does not need to be a romantic love interest one. Soulmate connections give the grounds to establish that Love is a reality and that all reality lived within the illusion world is an offshoot of that Love, whatever distortions it may have gone through in the meantime to serve the higher purpose within this material plane.

Some Souls retain a higher communication capacity because their mission, in whatever way it manifests itself in the material plane, is to fully establish the reality of True Love. These Souls which usually come to manifest in pairs have a connection capacity which is called Twinflame connection as the jargon goes and the connection is a very strong one when it is manifested simultaneously from a time perspective and normally fully establishes itself – except for rare circumstances – on all levels including the physical plane.

To understand the Twinflame connection one must understand that once the connection is established, three levels of interaction emerge: the interaction on the spirit plane (the spirit part of yourself meets the spirit part of your twinflame), the interaction on the etheric plane (the etheric part of yourself meets the etheric part of your twinflame) and the interaction on the matter plane (the body of you meets the body of your twinflame).

I insist that I am not an advisor on twinflame connections but merely am talking on the basis of what I have experienced myself which may or may not conflict with what other people experience or talk about. I hope it helps others find and relate to their twinflames if they do exist on this plane at this moment in Time.

When an interaction occurs on the spirit plane and both spirits have devised that there is a twinflame connection, the connection is then established on the etheric level and there is acute interaction on the etheric side which is lived out in dreams most of the time by the bodily representation of the Soul. When the etheric being, in conjunction with the spirit being decides that the bodily representation is ready, the full connection is made between the two bodily representations. This happens first on the etheric plane and is facilitated by the etheric beings who carry into the body the effects of the energy weaving which is happening on the etheric plane. When the twinflames meet, they recognise each other thanks to this interaction that occurred beforehand and are maintained together by the energy weaving on the etheric plane.

In order to enable this connection to happen within the physical world, both the etheric being and the spirit being of a twinflame will sow clues leading to the other twinflame. These clues are called synchronicities as the jargon goes and are merely there to be looked upon as indications of a twinflame connection. The synchronicities are mainly time-constrained elements such as special numbers on digital clocks, dates that stand out in mind or in eyesight or within hearing or are art-related such as music or paintings. The main reason for the choice of time-constrained elements is that the bodily representation is very linked to the notion of Time that it creates and that it is expressed within and linked to so only such clues are looked at carefully by the unconscious mind. The reason for the choice of art-related clues is that art is the highest form of communication from the Soul and is normally perceived unadulterated because, with some rare exceptions of distortions, it talks directly to the Soul and has a common intrinsic value to the twinflame Souls.

A few problems that might occur or have occurred and that prevent this connection from establishing itself fully are the following: mental illness of one of the twinflames, drug or any other strong substance abuse, actual chosen energy weavings with another partner who might be a soulmate and more primarily a very strong ego and a total engrossment with the material plane. When such problems exist, the affected twinflame may either not perceive the synchronicities or simply misinterpret them.

Leaving the other extreme cases aside and not dealing with the case of an existing partner as that would be a personal choice matter, I will deal mainly with what happens in terms of the Ego. When the bodily representation totally identifies itself with the Ego which is the distorted energy pattern of the etheric and spirit selves constructed by the bodily representation from badly decoded messages sent by the these two selves, the actual connection is not possible. Indeed, the stronger the Ego, the more the bodily representation identifies itself with the misconstrued representations of its etheric and spirit selves and is therefore misguided instead of being guided. In this way, this twinflame attempts to latch on to another soul that is not its twinflame and projects towards it all the communication derivatives from its distorted etheric and spirit selves. When the other soul receiving the information is also expressing within the same context, this distorted communication will continue and enhance instead of pacifying the sense of deep suffering felt by the twinflame.

A bodily representation that is misguided will live its mission of Love as a source of great suffering and because of the connection to the twinflame on the other levels, it will communicate this suffering to the other twinflame even if the bodily representation of the other twinflame has successfully established full connection with and integrated its etheric and spirit selves and has not yet established a communication channel with the bodily representation of its twinflame.

When the bodily representation is not identifying itself through the Ego or has successfully severed most ties with the Ego and properly established the connections with the etheric and spirit selves, there is a greater sense of Harmony and Peace that go through the bodily representation. A greater acceptance of all that is occurs and the body continues to evolve in a world of Peace, Love and Justice which it wishes both for itself and what it realises are all split projections of itself all over the world. Upon integrating the two other selves and constituting what can be called a Trinity, the twinflame thus integrated is able to pick up quicker on the synchronicities that come its way in order to identify appropriately and connect with the other twinflame. The problem in establishing this connection is that the open channel gives rise to a two-way communication which then opens the twinflame to all the suffering that may be experienced by the other twinflame if he/she has not fully integrated all selves and is not yet ready for the twinflame relationship.

As the open channel brings in the energy of the other twinflame, dark and deep distortions of the energy as experienced by the other twinflame can cause what will be considered as small deaths by the integrated twinflame as they absorb the energy distortions and help to “kill” the overpowering effect of the smaller ego manifestations sent by the twinflame. The annihilation of the manifestations of ego sent by the twinflame are felt as deaths because the receiving twinflame perceives fully the ego shards as being fully associated with the other twinflame and because of the open channel then temporarily identifies these ego manifestations or shards as being itself.

It is only when all the energy distortions stop that the proper communication can be made between both twinflames for the real work to commence. Usually, an integrated twinflame is able to identify clearly the other twinflame, except where there are remnants of ego within that are not too big to suppress the connection with the etheric and spirt selves but still too confusing to identify properly the twinflame.

When the twinflame is identified, the integrated twinflame normally knows that the full work has not been done on the self as the other twinflame is not close to recognising it although it has seen or felt some of the synchronicities. Thus, if deciding to open the channels of communication, the integrated twinflame knows that this is a sacrifice that can potentially bring it backwards in terms of all the work done for integration because of the energy distortions it will have to open itself to when opening the communication channel on the etheric level.

Some twinflames rightfully choose to keep the channel closed or partially open with protections within it to avoid the pain and suffering that come through it and the potential of having to do some of the work all over again in order not to lose the benefits of integration. However, protections also delay the communication and can make the integration of the other twinflame as slow as it was initially. Some twinflames knowingly open the communication channel and are then submerged by what is received from the other side and can temporarily lose the capacity of relating properly to their own etheric and spirit beings although they are still not able to establish proper communication with the other twinflame.

During the biggest opening of this communication channel to the other twinflame, the core of the heartpath, the communication channel is at its purest and the synchronicity becomes totally convergent whereby the manifestation of it in the material plane will be a total coincidence/singularity of time and art representation. However, the pain that is felt by the integrated twinflame is totally unbearable as they absorb fully in the spirit of the sacrifice all the fears, suffering and sadness of the twinflame leaving them fully burdened by these emotions and the twinflame temporarily with feelings of great peace and solace. This is therefore a risky matter and sometimes, if the integrated twinflame has kept remnants of ego and therefore fear, that integrated twinflame may be afraid that maintaining the opening of the communication channel is going to bring them too much hurt to bear or take them backwards and might decide to cut some of the contacts thereby making the channel a protected one. This then creates a setback as the confusion may return again to the other twinflame, more specifically as they have felt a great sensation of peace and solace and may then again misguidedly route its origins towards something that was simultaneously present in their material world at the time, confusing that with the etheric communication channel.

When all misconceptions are cleared and there is no other problem left to resolve, twinflames may meet and totally relate in the physical world too thereby completing their double Trinity fully and ridding themselves and each other of any smaller remnants of Ego. The physical encounter is also not devoid of its dangers as the day-to-day life can become cumbersome if the levels of Ego are at a higher level than that which would keep the twinflames together. All of this is communicated on a regular basis by the etheric and spirit selves to each of the twinflames and if they listen carefully and out of the reach of their individual egos, they are able to successfully establish a lasting twinflame connection and then start their proper mission of Love.  I have no doubt that I will at least be able to achieve part of it despite all the pain and suffering and the carcasses strewn by misguided intent on the path towards it, I am filled in the deeper recesses of myself with the peace of knowing implicitly how beautiful it will be once the objective attained.

Transcendence is established by twinflames who are fully integrated and who are also able to get rid of their remaining shards of ego within the twinflame relationship and fully achieve that heartpath integration whereby they retain their individual characteristics within the bodily representations but are fully one on the etheric and spirit levels. Transcended twinflames live fully in True Love and their diffusion of the message of Love is received without distortion by all other twinflames who are continuing their integration as well as by other soulmates that continue to prepare in isolation other twinflames for their future and more important connections.

In some way, the balance between Death and Transcendence is very delicate for twinflames because of their greater connection to the communication channels of soul. Indeed, the spirit self which has little interest in worldly matters might diverge from the mission of Love and be attracted by the “Void” or the going back to the Source (the source of all creation) before the mission is accomplished thereby attracting both the etheric and bodily selves with it when integration has happened or is about to occur. The attraction to the void obviously represents itself within the material world by the actual death of the bodily representation of the Soul whether self-inflicted actively and directly or produced indirectly whether actively or passively by destructive patterns. Most of the time, the spirit self of the other twinflame keeps it from this straying by strong messages sent through the etheric and/or bodily representation of it even if the integration has not happened or the communication channel has not been fully opened between the twinflames. It happens on what one can call a “code red” basis of communication which then completely disregards the normal communication channel methods and processes devised by the Soul under guidance of the Source.

As for Death itself as we know it, it is a rather complicated matter which would require another set of thoughts and writings. Suffice to say that the premises of Death have been explained as the required event for a Soul to regenerate due to several items that deter it from its mission or because the mission was a punctual one and cannot be repeated and it is mainly due to this Time-constrained world as Soul has decided to manifest it. Other parts of Source have decided to manifest worlds that are not Time-constrained and in those worlds there is no notion of Time as we experience it and those worlds normally have no link with ours except on rare occasions.

Whatever your personal journey with Love, Death and Transcendence, we hope that you will find the above interesting and helpful for you and that somehow this will enable you to initiate your integration or move towards attempting it if you have not already done so. One interesting thing to mention is that when you are fully integrated, your healing capacities increase greatly and encompass other beings, not just yourself, so if you are on the beginning of your path, please do continue and don’t let elements of the grey existence deter you because it is truly a wonderful path to walk on.

Love and many blessings to all of you out there doing your work as you should be and I do hope that I will be able to attain Transcendence together with my twinflame within this lifetime as spirit has shown it to me.


No more you nor I

No more you nor I

4 October 2015

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Grasp warmth of my hand

Let me show you miracles

When eyes see with Heart


Two small particles

Equal more than multiverse

When fusing in core


Gift me your spent flesh

Renew in my beating Heart

With Essence of Life


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Drowning in heartbeats

Breathing through the flow of blood

Glorified Rebirth


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Reaching zero-point

Where nothing subsists but Love

As the soul transcends


The sound of stillness

Resonating in the Soul

More than mere Magic


No more you nor I

Not even a third being

Just all that will flow


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